Lessons I Learned

When I went private, I knew it was going to be temporary.  I knew it was what I had to do if I didn't want to quit blogging altogether for 8+ months.  How in the world would I blog about only 2 of my children?

What I didn't realize was how much it would teach me about myself.

I learned that I like an audience.  I now knew exactly who was reading and there weren't very many.  With almost no comments and no feedback, it was hard to write and share my excitement over our family.  I wanted to share our special children with others!

I also learned that I love having a digital scrapbook/journal of our lives.  I did a lot of reading through old posts during the last few months.  And I loved seeing, feeling, and reading the emotions throughout the years.  I cried and I laughed and I smiled as I remembered things I would have otherwise forgotten.  There are pictures and stories and emotion laced through everything.  I could feel the pain of infertility and the excitement of the adoption possibilities.  I could feel the excitement and nervousness through our adoptions.  I could remember those sweet precious moments when we first became parents in such an exciting and crazy way.  I'm so glad I have this blog to remember all of those things for me.

It's amazing how much we can learn from our past selves.  You forget about mistakes you've made or successes you've had.  Reading through my blog has reminded me of the importance of reflecting on our past.  So that we can more carefully enjoy our future.

I've grown so much in the last few years.  My heart has changed abundantly.  My home, my family, and my life are vastly different.  And another 5 years from now and I'm sure things will have continued to change faster than I ever thought possible.

So thanks for enjoying this journey of ours.  Thanks for reading and sharing in my excitement as my family has grown and flourished.  I love this little space of mine where I can put my heart on a screen and share it with whoever cares to read.