No news is good news?

We've had a lot of people asking, so here's an easy way to let everyone know.  So far, there's no more news regarding the baby.  So in the spirit of being positive, we're assuming no news is good news.

We know that the birth mom had a doctors appointment and sonogram yesterday.  We know that her case worker is in touch with her and our case worker is in touch with her case worker, who is then in touch with us.  And we know that the due date is quickly approaching.

We also know that our nerves are a mess and that each day we get more and more anxious.  I feel like everyone assumes that we are just beyond excited at this point.  The reality, no matter how excited we are, is that there are sill so many unknowns and so many things that could go "wrong" at this point.  The fact is, emotionally, we are quite the basket case at this point.  You never know when the fears and nerves are going to take over and you never know when the excitement is going to take over.

There's a lot of emotions at this point.  A few of my friends and coworkers have likened it to the last month of pregnancy and I would tend to agree.  However, as you near the end of a pregnancy, the fact is, the end result IS an addition to your family.  Now, obviously things can go wrong or not according to plan and I'm fully aware of that, but I think our struggle in this last waiting period is the reality that there may NOT be a baby at the end of this particular journey.  Sure we will put our names back in circulation, but this time, there is a very real possibility that it WON'T work out nicely.  And while we try not to dwell on that, it's always there in the back of our minds.

So I guess what I'm trying to say with all of this is to bear with us.  We are at a point where we WANT to know information but we DON'T know anything more.  It is extremely hard to relay that to others who are just as excited as we are and want information as well.  When we do know information (that we CAN share), we WILL share it.  We are not secretive people, we are very open and honest about our lives.

The point of this post didn't intend to be a whine session, however, I guess as my emotions are a wreck, that's what came out.  So continue to pray for us and for the birth mom and baby boy.  Hopefully we will know something soon (you know, like a c-section date) but until then we've tried to accept the fact that it's all in God's hands and what better hands for it to be in, and when there's important information to know, we'll know it.