Thank you everyone for all of the prayers. It quite literally is what is getting us through this rough time in our adoption journey. I cannot believe the mass amounts of people that have prayed for us and continue to do so, it means so much to us. At one point, we said that we wish that the birth mom could see just how much support we have in our lives, just to get a glimpse of the life her child could have had... Maybe that's just being selfish of me...
Anyway, people ask us how we're doing, and in answer to that, we're doing okay. There are certainly rough moments, but overall, we've accepted that our time will come and now it is our duty to pray for this child each and every day of our lives. He is our "spiritual child" from here on out and we would appreciate prayers for him and his family. I still break down quite a bit throughout the day, certain times are harder than others. At this point, we have put our profile back into circulation and are hoping for a short wait again this time... The wait is the hardest part of this whole thing, knowing it will start all over again and we have no idea or control over how long it is...
On another note, the name. The birth mom never actually named him while we were at the hospital. I think it had become a source of stress for her and she simply avoided it all. We have been calling him by the name we picked out for the last few weeks, but honestly, I couldn't bring myself to call him that after he was born. I sensed the hesitation on her part and knew things were not going to work out so smoothly.
The name that we have chosen for our first son is Anthony. While this baby would have been Anthony, it is still a name that we means a great deal to us, so it is a name we will use in the future. However, I'm simply tired of keeping it a secret, and my hubby agreed. So there you have it, curious minds can be put to rest :-). And just in case anyone is wondering, our favorite girl name is Abigail Clare.
Sorry for the randomness, that's simply how my mind is functioning right now. And again, thanks for all of the prayers and support. We feel truly blessed by all of the people in our lives and we know that our future children are going to feel the same.
2 comments:
We just went through a failed adoption a few weeks ago. Had our little baby boy in our home for 24 hours.
So sad and heartbreaking. He is spiritually adopted by us and I pray for him every day. But I still miss him too.
We were contacted by a social worker that showed our profile on Wednesday and an expectant mother wants to meet us in a few weeks. She is not due until January and I am scared out of my mind. The emotional investment and the financial investment (3K upfront birth mother expenses whether she places with us or not) are daunting.
crazy hard road!
I can't imagine what it's like to have had him in your home. It was bad enough to be at the hospital when he was born and hold him there! As hard as it was though, it's bittersweet in that we wouldn't have our daughter if that adoption had worked out, and I wouldn't trade her for the world. I will definitely pray for you and this situation, I know what it's like to play the waiting game, emotionally and financially!
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